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January 5th, 2019: I AM GOING TO DIE...if I don't change my ways right now. Before I explain this I want to share a quick summary of my life to date.

I was born with a bicuspid aortic heart valve, with means my valve only has two leaflets compared to a normal of three. Your aortic heart valve regulates all the blood exiting your heart and is about the width of a quarter. When I was born (1969 Lorado, TX USAF hospital) doctors thought it was a hole in my heart, growing up I remember to allot of wires (EKG's) but with no ill effects...I was even able to join the US Army in 1989 with a waver and served 12 years with no issues.

It was not until I was 40 or so I noticed something was wrong, so I had an ultrasound done and discovered that I would need surgy by the time I was 50 or I would die of heart failure. Nine years later, I went into heart failure...my body was filling up with fluid and I could barely breathe.

On another note, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2005, a condition that runs in my family...I lost my uncle and little sister to what 'the voices' told them to do. My condition is treatable and I believe helps me to use my dreams and voices to predict future events...I also believe its possible that anyone can do this, not just me.

What it like hearing voices?

This is the best way I can explain it for the 'normal' person...most people have thoughts racing in their minds during the day, these voices are commonly called 'self-talk'. Most of the time self-talk is repetitive and useless...but the normal person is aware that this self-talk is coming from their own brain...in a schizophrenic person, she or he sometimes is not aware of the source of this brain activity.

Ever since my open heart surgery this year, I've been almost totally inactive and eating way more food than I should...right now I weight 250-pounds (39 BMI) versus my normal bodyweight of 180...this is awful, embarrassing and will kill me if I don't do something about it now. Make no mistake, being overweight is my fault and there are no excuses...not even medical issues.

As you may have noticed in my blog, I love food...and luckily the food I enjoy is mostly healthy. I used to run on a daily basis and doing so let me eat basically as much as I wanted plus I'm fortunate that I don't like sweet stuff and sugary drinks.

So starting today I'm going to get back into shape... I also starting to use my past dreams to help me do so. I have set a goal for myself, a high goal, but an achievable goal...

I want to run and fishing (don't care what place) the Saint Judes Memphis Marathon on December 7th, 2019

If you wish to follow my progress or share yours on Fitbit, please do so...I have more than 10 months to be ready...and I will be.

fitbit

https://www.fitbit.com/user/3883PN

race

https://www.stjude.org/get-involved/fitness-fundraisers/memphis-marathon/races/marathon.html

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